Friday, October 17, 2008

Bittersweet.

I'm getting all sentimental. In addition to preparing for our sweet little baby girl (who will be born sometime during the week of January 26-31, we just need to schedule the surgery), I also have been preparing myself for losing my precious one on one time that I have with Christian.

I can't even begin to describe how blessed I feel that I had the opportunity to stay at home with Christian. While it has been extremely challenging at times, especially with juggling therapy and doctor appointments on top of a typical toddler attitude, I wouldn't have traded my time with my guy for anything else. We have had so much fun together, just the two of us. He's been my little buddy, always at my side, always making me laugh, and always, always, ALWAYS keeping me on my toes. I almost feel like this time right now is bittersweet, as if I know that my days of just the two of us are numbered as I anxiously await the arrival of our baby girl.

When our little girl arrives, I know that things will change. I won't be able to immediately respond to Christian's needs. Our quiet mornings together will be days of the past. Our routine will change, but I know it will be for the better. I am excited for Christian to have a sibling. I'm thrilled to have a daughter. I just know that I will miss my Mommy and Christian time that has become the center of my life.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Christian's Mommy!!

This is the first blog that I have ever read and this is the first comment that I have ever left online to someone that I did not know. A little strange for me. However, I was so moved by what you said about the arrival of the new baby being bittersweet. I was in your shoes three short years ago. I remember crying at night to my husband that maybe we had done the wrong thing by having another baby. I even had moments when I resented the baby growing inside of me. I just knew that this was going to ruin my 3yr old, deaf, sons life. In fact, the opposite has been true. Jacob and Caroline are like two peas in a pod! They are best buds--- of course they fight and don't share, etc. but they couldn't do without each other. Trust me, a sibling will be great for your child. It will make therapy time a little more challenging, but the positives far out weigh the negatives.

I wish you and your family all the best!!!
God Bless You!

leahlefler said...

I remember the worry about having a new baby and how we would have enough time to spend with both kids. Then the new baby is born, and you find that love is never divided and is always multiplied. The first few months can be rough- exhausting as they always are with a new baby. When everything settles, we made sure to keep some one-on-one with each child. Of course the baby already gets lots of one-on-one, but I took over bedtime with Matt and it is our special time when we read stories and talk about what we did that day. And the boys really have a great time together- they already chase each other and care about each other. And fight over toys, of course!

Karen Putz said...

Congrats on your upcoming new addition! I remember that feeling so well when I was pregnant with my second--wondering how I was going to divide up all my time. Then I added a third! It all works out. Somehow, you just find more of "you" to spread around. :)

The Pink Totebag said...

Ugh! Here I was, floating along with my own happy little pregnancy, dreaming of our girls being bffs and stuff, and then you throw this one out there and now I'm sad too! We'll have to start a support group for ourselves after they arrive where we can sit around and talk and drink wine - oh wait, we already do that. Hee hee. I guess now that Christian and Caroline are going to be our sloppy seconds to the new baibies, they are going to have to go join a gang together and we'll have to go bail them out of jail at the ripe old age of two. Thanks for the post - now I don't feel so weird for having some of the same thoughts about our own impending arrival... :)