I am just about at the tipping point right now. I've been stretched a bit too far this week, and I really REALLY could use a break right now.
So much is going on in our little family, and I'm having a really hard time juggling it all. I'm having an extremely hard time trying to be both a stay-at-home Mom, AND work 15-20 hours a week. Christian is having a tough time sleep-wise, which is making his behavior just go down the tubes. Which, then leads me to wonder if any of it is hearing related. My house is a mess. I still have 10 pounds of baby weight to drop. And I can't tell you the last time Chuck and I went out on a date. I have these dark circles under my eyes that even Lift Lumierecan't hide. My wardrobe, which used to include all of the newest designers and trends, consists of the same J.Crew shorts (in every color imaginable) and the same J.Crew shirt (in every color imaginable). I'm a mess. No wonder we haven't had a date night in over 3 months. Who wants to be seen out with the beat-down SAHM with puke stains on her favorite fit tee?
I always have prided myself in being a "glass-half-full" type of gal. Even when things get tough, I usually am the one giving the pep talks. I've tried giving myself a pep-talk "Hang in there, Tina...it's the terrible 2's...it will get better. Don't worry, Tina. No one cares if you haven't dusted in a week. It's ok, Tina, you don't have to be a SuperMom everyday". It's not working.
Honestly, the only thing that is keeping me somewhat on the same side of sanity is knowing that in a few short weeks my parents will be here. My Mom will help me clean. My Dad will entertain the kids. And they will let us get away so I can have some much needed time with my husband. It is SO incredibly hard living so far away from them. Now I know why my Mom got so ticked off at me when I planted my roots over 500 miles away from them. She knew it would be this tough. I hope to God Christian and Lily stay in Maryland so when their kids make them go postal, I'll be able to pick up their pieces.